Nothing Greater Than The Grace of Jesus

I am at the point in my journey where I can turn around and look back to see how God brought me through especially the first 4 months after the death of my husband.  And as I look back, I know that it is only by the grace of Jesus that I made it through.  During those months I not only buried my husband and both of my parents, but I packed up both homes, put all my belongings into storage,  had a garage sale in the middle of winter and sold everything within 3 hours’ time, listed both homes with a realtor and had a contract on both places within 13 days of listing.  Bob and I had never sold a home in our lives.  So, this was all new territory that I was going through in the midst of my grief fog.

Not only had we never sold a home, but we had only bought 1 home and other than giving my approval and signing on the dotted line, Bob had taken care of all of those details.  Numbers and I don’t get along, but Bob loved them.  So, he always took care of those kinds of things and I was very glad to let him do it.  Now I was in charge of buying a home all by myself with the help of some trusted christian realtors who have a special place in their hearts for widows.

While I was doing all of this, I was going to the nursing home every day taking care of both of my parents before they, too, went on to heaven.  The amount of stress that I was under was more than tremendous and I shake my head in wonder now as I look back on it all.  How did I make it through all of that?  It seemed like more than God should ask of me.  It was only by the grace of Jesus.

“So we’re not giving up. How could we! Even though on the outside it often looks like things are falling apart on us, on the inside, where God is making new life, not a day goes by without his unfolding grace. These hard times are small potatoes compared to the coming good times, the lavish celebration prepared for us. There’s far more here than meets the eye. The things we see now are here today, gone tomorrow. But the things we can’t see now will last forever.”    II Corinthians 4:16-18  The Message