Isn’t it amazing what God uses to speak truths to us. Last night I was watching the television show TIA AND TAMERA. This is a show about 35 year old twin sisters who are very close. They are both married and have children. When they were younger, they were just alike in their thinking, but as they have grown older, married, and each had a child, their thinking is not just alike on some issues. They have become their own person.
In this particular show, they were having issues with communicating with each other and realized that they needed help to figure out what the other twin was trying to say. So, they called a communications specialist who had them meet him at a go-cart place. He sat them down across the table from each other and had them ask each other questions such as “Did you mean to hurt me when you ________________?”, etc. Then he had them make a statements to each other about themselves – “If you really knew me, you would know that I _____________.”
The last exercise this specialist had them do involved teaching them how to really trust each other. Tamera got into a go-cart (pictured above) and donned a helmet that had a completely darkened front shield forcing her to drive blind. Inside the helmet was a speaker. Tia held a walky talky so that she could communicate with Tamera verbally guiding her as she drove around the track.
Tamera was terrified to be sitting and driving in this dark, closed in place! She felt totally afraid, unsure, and even got disoriented at times not knowing for sure if the go-cart was really moving forward or was sitting still. As Tia began to soothe her and assure her that she was going to guide her around that oval track, Tamera began to calm down. She quieted herself and just listened to the serene, peaceful words of her sister telling her how fast to move forward, what direction to turn the wheel or when to go straight. In fact, she made it all the way around the track and crossed the finish line driving totally blind.
When she lifted the completely darkened face shield of her helmet, her first words were, “What I learned from this is that it is easier to let go and trust.” As soon as she uttered those words, God said to me, “Candy, this is how you are to live your life as my daughter and now as a widow. I love you like no one else. Let go and just trust Me.” This is the hardest thing in the world for me to do because I fear that His way is going to hurt me even more than I have been hurt in the last 3 1/2 years. Yet, I know in my heart that this is something that I have to do in order to do what is right.
How about you? Do you find that you, too, are having trust issues since the death of your husband? If so, what steps have you taken to rebuild that trust in God?