“Grief is our finest, most enduring labor of love as we remember, honor, and rebuild our life for the future. Through the work of grief we learned the unforced rhythms of grace–the grace of God, the grace of rest for our soul.” Julie Yarbrough
Over the course of time since becoming a widow, I have read over fifty books written by Christian widows and a few widowers. Grief Light by Julie Yarbrough is one of the top three best books that I can recommend to other widows. This author has experienced firsthand the loss of a husband, a father, and a mother in less than a decade. She knows the pain of anticipatory grief and the all-consuming responsibility as well as exhaustion that a caregiver experiences.
Grief Light allows the reader to emotionally walk through that time with her as she processes every facet of grief. Julie is very candid and frank about her responses to all of the emotions that she feels. She does not tiptoe around the issues and allows herself to share the effects of grief and even the thoughts she has about things that people say to her. Holding herself up to the standard of “Super Christian/Super Widow” is something that Julie does not do. Nor does she wear a mask. I found her raw honesty to be very refreshing.
There are many different kinds of grief that Julie talks about that such as scrappy grief, collective grief, empty grief and delayed grief. Most of these were types of grief that I had not heard of or read about. Because Julie had wonderful relationships with her husband and her father, but did not have a good relationship with her mother, she experienced different kinds of grief and is thus qualified to talk about them.
I was especially moved by the comparison of grief to a slow-moving train that the author gave and feel it is important to share a bit of that here with you because it is so easy to picture it in your mind.
“…I thought about how grief moves through our lives, much like a slow-moving train. It’s not at all difficult to name the freight cars of our grief–fear, worry, despair, anxiety, loneliness. But if we look at what’s under the train, guiding its path, directing the way, we see tracks–simple yet ingenious in their design and purpose.
The tracks are a little like our life. We name the two heavy rails of our spiritual support–trust and faith. Upon the rails of our life are evenly spaced ties of love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, generosity, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control (Galatians 5:22 NRSV). The ties distribute the weight of our grief so that we’re able to bear the load of our life without the one we love.
The train’s track system is embedded in ballast–small pieces of broken rock packed together and leveled to keep the rails and ties in place. Ballast gives the track a stable base. The ballast and bedrock of our grief are the steadfast love and faithfulness of God….(Psalm 36:5 NIV).
The rails of a train track are set at a fixed distance apart. The gauge corresponds precisely to the wheel specifications of the train. The train can’t run without the tracks, the tracks have no use except for the train. The tracks lead somewhere–there’s a destination….
We’re not intended to sit idly at the railroad crossing of our life worrying about when life will move on or where life will take us. We wait for awhile–with frustration and anger, or with forbearance and hope–as the train of loss and sorrow moves slowly through our soul. We know with certainty that every train ends, with or without the finality and promise of a red caboose. When at last the tracks of our life clear, we’re on the move again. Our end station is life beyond our grief. When our direction is certain, we move ahead….”
Julie also shares that one of the most difficult challenges of grief is waiting–“waiting on God, waiting on life to unfold, waiting to feel better, waiting to be better…….When we grieve, somewhere deep within we long to soar again. It’s what pushes us to struggle with what’s happened and find within our soul God’s power lifting us up to new heights of life and love and faith.
Grief Light is one of those books that is important to read whether you are a new widow or a widow who is years into her journey. No more than three pages are written on each topic that Julie discusses making it one of those books that is easy to read and to absorb. As I read this book, I found a better understanding of my grief and had one of those “God lightbulb” moments that answered one of the questions that I’ve been asking God for the last six years.
Julie was kind enough to send me an extra copy of this book to give away. The first person that lets me know via a comment below in this blog post that she would like to read this book, I will be very happy to get a copy of it to you in the mail.
Thanks so much for sharing ! I would love to read it !
Hi Teresa. Since Carrie opted out of receiving the book and you were the next to ask for it, please send me your mailing address at firstname.lastname@example.org and I will get it in the mail to you.
Thank you, Candy. I’m not asking you to send the book to me, but I would like to purchase a book. Will you please tell me where I can buy one? Your posts are helpful to me. God bless you.
The book can be purchased at Amazon in either paperback or Kindle form. If you click on the book title in this post, it will take you directly to Amazon. I see no reason why you shouldn’t have this book, Carrie, as you were the first to respond. Please send your mailing address to email@example.com
No, but thank you very much. Please give it to someone else. You will know who, for God will tell your heart. I have Kindle, and an Amazon account. I’ll order tonight. I’m needing to learn Quick Books, which might make me bald (skip gray). I am a tender person, and I identify with much of what you write regarding your emotions and how you handle situations. I never expected to need to learn so much at this time of my life (71). I’m asking Jesus to help me learn what I need to know, and He will. Right now, I need to learn QBs. If I don’t need to, He’ll give me another way. Perhaps I’m just hoping I really don’t need to learn this thing I don’t like (smile). Warm hugs.
I would like to read the book. I’m Still dealing with grief .
Hi JoAnn. Teresa commented soon after Carrie. The Kindle version of the book on Amazon is very inexpensive. I hope you can read it that way.
I’m interested in reading the book. Thank you.
HI Louisa. I wish I had more than 1 book to give away. Teresa jumped in line first. If you have Kindle, you can buy it very inexpensively to read from Amazon.
Well, congrats to the lady who got the book. It sounds like a good one. I just had a bout of crying at lunchtime today. It’s been a little over three years, and while the grief is not as raw, I still grieve over my loss.
I will put this on my Amazon wish list. Thank you for sharing.
Lorraine, the widow who is receiving the book has a friend who became a widow 7 months ago. So both ladies will be reading it.
I, too, still have times when I cry. Grief never goes away.